You are all sages to me Thank you for your replies, and I mean all of you!!! I’ve stayed away from here lately, sheepishly, thinking “fuck, this was just one more time I let the world and the wine I drank make me speak what I thought was my mind, but really maybe I was just being an idiot.” Thank you all so much for returning me to what I usually think, that I am NOT crazy and that by reaching out somehow I will find my right and hopefully ultimate way! Especially to MeThisGuy, I sense we’re in the same stage of palpating the world, I think it would be a lovely time if I ran into you someday and we sat down to chat Earthiness, smoke, and Bacchanalian drink are my aids tonight. I’m trying to put something worth reading on paper, for the fun and if I’m a lucky person the gain of it. Not that I’m obsessed with money, but a clean slate would do almost anybody a world of good, I’d guess… Love to you all Hope some of you are on tonight!